Monday, June 30, 2014

Pivoting... but still getting started.

Someone said to me once, “Everyone has one good blog post in them.  After that, well… it rarely lasts. One Post Wonders, I call them.”  At the time it made sense superficially, but I was determined that it would not apply to me.  I have always loved writing and this was my chance to challenge myself to be open, connect with people from afar, and feel the rush of being creative on a regular basis.  

Recently, however, I have found myself thinking back to this comment as I must admit that I’ve been finding harder and harder to write.  I spent a few weeks wondering why this is.  Is it because things are stable, so I find myself boring?  Do I not feel like I have anything to say anymore?  Have I simply gotten lazy and stopped questioning myself?  Should I just give it up and try starting something new?

When I began writing this blog, I was facing a tremendous amount of uncertainty.  Given the alternative was crawling up in a hole and not coming out, I decided to approach my complete lack of knowledge and experience as a journey of self discovery.  I was figuring out what I was good at, what I cared about, how I could relate to others and the world around me.  Almost completely overwhelmed by all the things I didn’t know, I felt the only thing I had the authority to write about was myself.  Having an opinion on anything else seemed uncomfortable, almost arrogant.  So I chose to put my questions about myself out there first.  And it has been an amazing process sharing those questions with anyone who cared enough to read what I had to say. 

But simply writing about myself has gotten harder because, well, let’s face it... I’m pretty damn boring these days.  But also because as I am diving deeper and deeper into the angel investing world, my confidence is growing.  The number of informative experiences are piling up, data points are accumulating, and I’m starting to form stronger and stronger opinions on what I am doing.  I want to share thoughts on these topics, but I’ve been holding back because I actually believe sharing what I think about the world is a lot scarier than sharing what I think about myself.

Many have told me it is bold to be as uncomfortably honest and open as I have been on the blog.  Sure, I get a little nervous about it sometimes, but overall I actually think I’ve been taking the easy way out.  Writing about myself is easy because even if I reveal too much, if you don’t get it, or you disagree with my approach…. you can’t really tell me I am wrong.  It’s like when mature people tell you to use “I feel disrespected….” statements instead of “You disrespected me ….” because the other person can’t tell you that you are wrong (tricky, right?)  

Semantics?  Maybe.  But my point is that I feel I’ve come to a point where I’m ready to start thinking and sharing about topics that are much bigger than just me.   I no longer want to be afraid that people might discredit me or disagree with what I am saying.  

So, in the interest of always getting started, this post is marking a pivot away from writing just about myself. From now on, I'll be blogging about bigger topics such as what it's like to be a young angel, why we believe in female founders, why I care about education, and lots of other things which will certainly continue to involve my regular rambling, lack of conclusions, new beginnings, and self questioning/reflection. 

When we invest, we look for entrepreneurs who love what they do and feel they are on a mission.  That means that they’ll keep going even if they see a bump in the road or things get a little harder.  Nobody likes a hypocrite, so here I am, refusing to give up.  Refusing to be a “One Post Wonder”.  I love to write, and I cherish nothing more than the connections I have made and strengthened through this blog thus far.  So, yep.  I’m still getting started.  Just in a bit of a different direction.  Stay tuned!

P.S.  To mark the occasion, I also bought my own domain name.  #booya #bigtime #thelittlethings